I spend very little time with my father's sister. She was a very important part of my life growing up, but since her husband, my father, and another Aunt has died she spends every waking moment talking about how sad it is that they're gone, how wrong, etc. It's depressing. I know that I do not honor my father's memory wallowing in sorrow. He lived his life to the fullest and had no regrets. This is just a really bad month for me. The other 11 months I can put things in perspective. I know that he would be very disappointed in me for wanting to curl up in a ball and hibernate through this month.