I need to talk to someone... FAST... my friends are all busy, they aren't answering their phones... my mom and dad will just be mean and/or obnoxious about it... I am in the process of setting up a shrink and a therapist, but I haven't done it yet (the flooding in the area is kind of delaying the process). I'm on this dating website, and I was chatting with a guy who chose to contact me - I didn't contact him first. I thought the conversation was going well, and then he types this:

"I'm gonna have to ask you a question. Are you really that overweight that you had to put it up there? Sorry, but it's kinda important to me."

Exactly how much extra weight qualifies here? I put "Overweight" in my specs on that website because it happens to be true. I put it in because I want to be honest with people about how I look, so that they don't waste either my time or theirs. If it's so damn important to him, why is he even chatting with me at all? Please don't misunderstand - everyone's entitled to their preferences. I recognize that. But that really hurt - can't people simply accept the fact that YES, I am overweight? And I'm sorry if it's important to you... it's important to me too, and I am trying to live a healthier lifestyle. But honestly, what's the point if all that happens as a result is that I'm considered "acceptable" by jerks like this?

I want to cry. I want to drink some more until my brain oozes out of my skull. I want to cut. Someone PLEASE help me, I have no one else to talk to.