Firstly, you are NOT a bad person I'm so sorry you're feeling like this, I -and many others on PC- understand what you're going through. I used to have a really bad social phobia, I'm not exactly over it but I was lucky enough to open myself up to a few people who've turned out to be great, supportive friends. Before them I used to not leave my house for weeks in fear of seeing other people. Its hard to let your guard down, especially if you've been hurt before.. But we are all here for you
As Touch of Gray said, medications can take a while to have their full effect. I was on Zoloft for over two months before it started to help me. In the beginning it made me mad and frustrated because I thought it should make me happy immediately and I wanted to stop them, but my therapist and mom encouraged me to stay on, so I did. I encourage you to stick with the meds, too, for a bit longer at least. Are you seeing a therapist/counselor?


We're here for you