I will be brutally honest I'm no cupcake, all sweet & cheery. I'm moody, sullen, pessimistic, lazy & a pretty big failure when it comes to making money for our family. I know that weighs heavily on my H being the sole bread winner. I feel that my mental illnesses have pulled him down when he's sick & tired of holding me up. When I'm really sick he worries for my safety which in turn is the safety of the kids. Last time I was hospitalized in January he asked me to come home bec he couldn't do it by himself anymore. I wasn't ready to leave, but I had a family to hold together so my issues were put on the back burner.
He has many of his own issues he won't share w/ me anymore. There are many subjects we just don't discuss anymore bec they lead to a fight or a stalemate. We both get frustrated & they we don't talk about it. I've asked him to return to couples T but he refused again. That is the ultimate hurt bec I feel like I'm willing to ask someone to help us & his reply means to me that he thinks everything is fine.