C- It makes me feel drugged I only take 25 mg PRN but I want to see how it goes at 12.5 mg. luckily I hate feeling drugged.

I'm understanding things better today. If I watch people's lips I can for the most part 'get it'. It could be understanding more because my husband got me new headphones so I can control/block out both my head noise and the world's noise that seems to stress me because I can't understand it.

I wish I could blame the seroquel but I was having the confusion that and violent thoughts before the seroquel. I tried to circumvent this awhile ago when I first wanted to jump out of my skin and the seroquel made that feeling worse until I passed out. That was like 3 days before (trying) talking to T. I'm fine with the seroquel if it didn't cause me disturbing dreams and sleep / drugged feeling for days. I'd take it if my husband would cut it in half for me but he insist all the issues I'm having are because of the AP when he didn't even realize the first time and it all started with the other medication. If he wants me to stop inadvertently threatening 'pretty' bodily harm and the like he should let me take the stupid AP. It's really crappy that we both are currently interested in causing him harm. I still have his meds hidden. He's already warned me if he goes inpatient, I will be too.

T knows how hard it is for me to take meds, it took her 2 yrs to convince me to get a PRN. She spent a half hour longer with me then she was suppose to. Partially to deal with the incoherent, threatening one sided argument I had with my husband in her office. about taking the stupid thyroid medication and him saying I refuse to take the PRN (so not true). T really tried to get me to hold a conversation but kept repeating I need to try to take the AP. FYI descriptively threatening bodily harm directly to some one while in a therapists office, not a good idea.

The thyroid med is the one causing the weakness, dehydration, and dizziness. Okay it's probably my body adjusting to actually having an active thyroid but I truly believe whether it's because the medication is starting my thyroid and my body doesn't appreciate it or some weird scary side effect. Is your dr just not listening? I can't be sure I was even explaining it properly to her. She was probably a bit upset that I refuse to take the neurotin. When did you last have a thyroid check? I get it rechecked the 9th. I'm talking to pdoc about the thyroid medication on the 25th.