I started excerising more I am begining to to weight and strength traing that will help me gain more weight back again.

I am really glad I am doing this it keeps me active every day going out excercising and building mucsle is really turing out to be a postive thing for me. Giving me focus.

i am going to start increasing my daily meals now too eating two dinners and two breakfasts.

I am just noting that this is going to be a challenge for me its already hard for me to remember to have just three meals a way.

I constantly self beat up myself cause it irritates me that I can't keep up with my eating right. Some day I end up just sleeping in nearly all the day and I don't end up eating at all.

my weight went down a few weeks ago and I really hate when I notice this kind of thing. To me looking down and seeing the numbers on a weigher is just evidence that I truly do have a eating disorder and just how much I truly do struggle with it.
I know I can get over this in my life, not every day will be easy but if I put focus into it I am sure I can get myself to my target weight and hopefully I can stay at it.