I do feel morally obligated to say, find a T to continue working through what brings you to SH. At some point, you may find yourself saying, enough is enough already with the abuse to self. You are worthy of getting there!
I believe it was Perna, in a recent post on this thread, that mentioned being in her 30's before meeting her now husband. 39 to get married.
I know, it seems pressing, in the minute, but there's something refreshing about getting into one's 30's, figuring out where you fit into the world, and then *poof*, secure in self, and along comes that special someone. I say, it's worth the wait.