Thanks

Trouble is I can't be...she will see what a freak I am! I mean, I am either dead quiet, confrontational and angry or over the top kooky! I can't relax, I don't know how to relax. I will constantly be thinking she is thinking awful things about me then will hate her for it. Yeah she knows about my situation. She already guessed there was something wrong so my hubby just confirmed what she already knew.

Just want to feel good enough! I also have all these things I have planned to do! I have just arranged another event and don't know how I am going to cope with it all. I keep saying yes to ppl cause I have said no for so long I fear losing the few friendships I have. So now, I have loads to do with no inclination how I am going to do it all.

Feel so anxious now, wish she was never coming and wish I had never said yes to all these things I am expected to do!