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The kind of anger and frustration and acting out that you are discussing here is more "common" in men then women.
In order for you to "gain a handle" on this deep anger that puts you at "risk" of acting out "in destructive ways" is "you have get to the bottom of this anger and TALK AND TALK IT OUT WITH A PERSON ON THE OTHER END OF THIS DISCUSSION THAT CAN VALIDATE YOU IN A WAY WHERE YOU FINALLY FEEL YOUR DEEP FRUSTRATION IS "HEARD" AND "UNDERSTOOD".
You need to get to the point where you understand this on a "very different" level then you do now. For example, lets say you are trying to "fix" an engine that is broken and no matter what you do, the engine isn't working right. Well, often what most men will do is get so angry and frustrated they "destroy the engine". However, if someone else who knew how to actually "fix" what is wrong and stepped in and showed you and discussed how they too at one point was stumped, you would "learn" something and that "frustration and anger" would dissipate and you would gain a sense of "having more control".
You need to "understand how the human brain really works" instead of consistently making these decisions to "act out" and do things that are "non productive and are destructive".
For example; when you experienced that group of kids in their car that gave you a dirty look and threw you the finger, "you reacted" to a point where your desire was to be "destructive" towards them. You reacted so badly that you were driven to "pursue" them and "punish them" for how they reacted to you.
The reality of that situation is that these "punks" are not much different then you because they also have no real mentor to help them channel their energy towards "being productive" and "gaining on their sense of control". Therefore, the circuits are
reacting in the brain to go into "defensive" mode through a more "physical" means, where as that would not happen if "real problem solving and knowledge of "what this means" was actually in place in these male brains.
What you have "unknowingly" learned to do is react based on some very "primitive" instincts that human males were designed to have for "survival". It isn't just "you" that is challenged with this either. Human males are hardwired to "act" and control, and unfortunately "actually being able to "reason" instead is not so easy". This is why we have "never" been able to do away with "war".
Look at what is happening now with the conflict going on between the US and Syria.
We are dealing with a man "Assad" that tends to "act out and destroy innocent people" by using "poisonous gas". This is a leader who is really "acting out of fear and frustration" and he has very "poor" reasoning skills. He "hates" and "reacts" to the US just as you do with those "punks". You don't really "know" these "punks" or their background story either, you just see "red". You are operating in "defense" mode constantly and until you take the time to "dig into this problem" and understand it with "more reasoning skills" and I emphasize "skills" because "skills" are slowly learned, you will remain in "ready for confrontation mode".
You most likely get "mean" with alcohol because you "cannot relax and just let go", even though you would like to and often need to because "ready for confrontation mode is mentally and physically exhausting".
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