I'm going thru something similar . Wtf I hate this shyt too! Depression is coming on & like u said - feels like a stupid mood to me.

I'm also pms'ing, but I think when depression comes on I also feel it physically... Feel sick and I guess I am sick. Terrible headaches, low energy. Trying to take it easy but too much to do! Takes all I have to not be mean to my kids for no reason, forcing smiles cuz it's good for them & I love em.

Lately I'm controlling my yelling to more of a growl & profanities when I hope no one can hear. Improvement? Maybe but I still hate it. Growled profanities at the tv to shut up leave me alone & it wasn't even on. :/. Recently yelled at the shower too cuz there's mold in it, yelled at shampoo don't remember why. Better than taking it out on & scaring real people, right?

Then I'm in the mirror spewing mean thoughts at myself about whatever... Actually unclenched my teeth, loosened my jaw and changed my wording. Couldn't look myself in the eye in the mirror but changed the nasty thing - "u dumb fat B... ..B... Beautiful sensitive woman in pain...". This is where fake it til u make it is true & good. Someone's got to say nice things to me & change harmful thought patterns & mean mean mean self critiquing.

I took xtra anti anxiety / sleep meds last night over 5 hour span. Finally fell asleep finally around 3am. I wish I hadn't cuz now I may run out early.
Then there's the med hangover,,, ugh yea stupid mood.

What mg were the advils? I hope you are okay. Eat food and drink a lot of water. Please get to the ER if you start feeling faint or any symptoms. And please don't beat yourself up - You are sad and hurting and in pain.

Big gentle hugs