It's actually a relief. This has been 4+ months of pure stress. I've had to tell me kids, I've had to go to therapy (and will for some time), buy a bunch of new furniture, re-learn my finances, everything is changing.

But now it's done. I feel like I've been put through the ringer but it's done. Now it's time to give her the space she asked for and hope it works. That and get to know myself and work on my loneliness issues.

For the past couple days she's expressed much regret, told me she loves me, shown me affection, told me I'm still her husband but she needs to space to deal with her issues. I don't know if that's just last minute regret or actual progress.

Either way, I now have the green light to heal. Still completely confused but ready to heal.