I have been scared. Because I am older and have been on the weight yoyo, my skin is much bigger than my body. So most people do not see what I have been doing. It has been scaring me. But still I have kept losing. The doctor told me to stop. I said of course I will. But I didnt. I am so physically sick. And still have been losing. I have bed sores on the tailbone. Two days ago I ate 3 apples. My friend brought them to me. And I cooked them in a pan with water. Today I bought 2 apples. I cooked them and ate them. Then my friend brought me 2 more. I am so scared because physically I have been so sick for a couple of months. so I ate the other 2 apples. cooked. I have very mixed feelings about having done this. But I am trying anything I can to try to repair the damage to the digestive system that keeps me so sick.