I know some people will see it as paranoid thinking, and it may as well be. But I can't keep these thoughts out of my head. I keep thinking I am going to be taken away, but I also keep visualizing these horrible things happening people. I think the surgery triggered me because I haven't been able to stop these thoughts no matter how many rituals I do.

TW: Surgery, stitches, blood

For example I keeping having these intrusive thoughts that consist of "what would happen if you pulled at your stitches?" "pull at your stitches" etc etc. I know WHAT would happen, which is why I haven't, but these thoughts are awful. I can't stand it. I have no idea how to cope with these thoughts right now.