Of course, it was only a matter of time before the only person I trusted left. Again.
I really hate being me. I'm over not being able to say what I actually feel, I'm over getting jealous, I'm over not being able to make up my mind, I'm over drama, I'm over emotions, I'm just ugh.
There's no way of 'fixing me'. This friggin curse is going to stay forever.
I try so hard yet always somehow manage to ruin all my efforts and start from the beginning again.
I'm tired of trying.

I don't even know what I want out of this post. Just need to vent I guess.