I'm posting this out just because I feel like I'm drowning in my own misery and don't know where to go. It's been too months since I was hurt more than I feel like I've ever been hurt. In those 2 months, I've been lower than I think I ever have been, in a dark place that is darker than I think I've ever seen.
But in those 2 months, I think what makes it worse is that no one has seemed to notice my misery or my pain. Not my friend and not my family. Am I wrong for expecting people to notice? I don't feel like I can really talk about it to anyone face to face, but I think I'd like someone to actually notice.
It just makes me feel like I've been totally abandoned, like maybe I don't really have the friends I thought I did.
I'm just moving through my life as well as I can be.
Today is the first of a few milestones I'm just looking to survive. It's the birthday of the person who hurt me. But even though she hurt me, I still can't lay any anger on her. I'm just miserable.