The situation is complicated (as most of my relationships with men have been since I started college). M and I weren't dating yet because he he went away for 3 months and I went away for one month, so it made sense to hold off. I'm not upset about the involvement with another, just the hiding of it. A week before he got involved with another girl, his father suddenly died. M has apologized and we've talked a lot of things out. Since he was accountable for everything and made no excuses, I figured that I could forgive this evasion of responsibilities because I know how irrational people can following the death of someone.

I agree with what you're saying about J, but I can't seem to make it stop. You're not giving poor advice and I appreciate the reply, but neither seem feasible. Both are friends with almost all of my friends, so if I cut off contact with both, I'd lose my social life and isolate myself. I can't be around M and not talk to him. It would depress me too much and I wouldn't be able to be where ever he is at. I would just see that everyone else around me is able to find happy connections with other people but me and that no one understands me and I would cry myself to sleep every time (this has been proven).

I've been in therapy on a weekly basis for a long time. I'm now on medicine for cyclothymia. I don't know how to move on because there is no one else. Everyone always thinks I'm being dramatic, but I can honestly say that after living in this small city for years that I am attracted to no one else that I haven't already tried something with. Even the handful of people that I thought I had potential with now have girlfriends. So there is no anyone else.

I feel like I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't. My plan is to move after graduation to try again somewhere else, but if I don't find emotional support here, then I will never get on a healthy track of mind. I'm even on a dating site and am very involved in lots of things. What can I do? I'm lonely, but everyone here is unattractive, boring, or not emotionally mature enough for me. I'm so sick of crying and feeling worthless