Ive thought so many times, why is it that i cant go on with my life? Maybe i deserve this for something that i did in the passed. Maybe its the way that its suppost 2 be. I remember spending days and nites just thinking "what did i do 2 deserve this?" I dont know yet, and ive been thinking about it for so long. I had a mental break down and just went upstairs 2 release everything, but its not really releasing everything, cause when scar tissue builds up it doenst let everything come out... I dont know im just ranting. I dont want anyone 2 get hurt, i dont want anyone 2 feel the pain that i do. I dont know what the hell is wrong with me......