herethennow, I haven't. One claims I did, but I don't think so. He looked about ready to cry actually. I don't like crying in front of anyone. Ever. I hate myself if I do. I know that's not right, and you should feel like you can let out your emotions, but I can't. I feel really strongly about it to. I shouldn't cry in front of people. So you're not alone, htn. I hope that you can find someone who you are comfortable expressing those emotions to; it sounds like your current therapist and psychiatrist don't make you feel comfortable talking to them.

The stress has pretty much made most of my nights depressed ones. Pretty depressed right now; I took my pill early so I'd fall asleep early and escape the pain. I hate feeling like this. I hate myself.