Before i start i just want to say that i am in no way suicidal.

I am just feeling so so bad right now. Cant see my therapist or go to work this week because my car is having problems and is in the garage.
Very expensive to fix the car and already having financial problems. So have had to borrow £500 from my emotionally abusive parent (i'll never hear the end of this)...just spent all afternoon crying my eyes out.

i'm just so tired of it all.

It's all my own fault, it's karma biting me on the bottom for something awful that i did as a teenager. I just wish it would stop.