I have had transference feelings towards my old therapist for over a year now. I still email him(he moved away) and I told him about the transference in June. I just emailed him a couple days ago asking him if he is ok talking about the transference again or if he just wants to leave that subject alone. He replied back saying that I could talk to him about it and asked what is on my mind. I emailed him back and I haven't heard back from him since. It's not like him to take days to email me back. My mind is going crazy thinking of why he hasn't responded. What if I said something that pushed him away,what if the email didn't send right,what if I lose all contact with him and he won't answer me ever again etc. I did say in the email that I wasn't sure if the transference feelings I have are a fantasy,real life,or a little of both. The other time we talked about transference he thought it was only a fantasy. He did say that I can talk to him about the transference but I just don't understand why he wouldn't get back to me if he said that. It hurts me so much just thinking about losing him. Knowing he was only an email away any time helped me so much. I have really strong feelings for him and I just can't lose him. I have been crying every day since because he isn't responding. I'm just so worried that he will never email back and I will lose him forever. Just thinking about it hurts me. I trusted him with everything,I was completely honest about things to him,I got comfortable around him etc and that doesn't happen with many people.