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Old Sep 16, 2013, 04:28 PM
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I'm having one of those days. The days when everything is irritating me, and I just want to fly off the handle. I want to scream at someone. Although, I know that doing so will not make anything better, so I'm trying so hard to control myself.

I know that I'm supposed to pay attention to my breathing, do my muscle relaxation exercises blah, blah, blah, and I have, but it's just not making a difference today.

I keep thinking about how I was "pre-trauma", and how I am today. I keep telling myself to "knock this crap off. Get with it. People have gone through so much more than you have. You don't deserve to feel this way. You were so much stronger before it happened. What happened to that girl?"

I know these are not the right thoughts to have. I would never think, nor tell anyone else who is going through it the things that I have been telling myself. My problem is that I am so much more critical of myself than anyone else. I know that it's wrong. But can someone please tell my why we do it? Can someone please tell me why we hold ourselves to a higher standard than anyone else when we know it's being unfair to ourselves?

I know that my T would tell me to just change the way I am thinking. But it's so hard when you believe the things you are telling yourself. Right down to the core.

I know it's only temporary, and this too shall pass. I'm just having a really rough day, and I guess I needed to vent.
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