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I can understand how you would feel like everything is out of control at this point in your life. First some questions about this job you are thinking about: (1) would you enjoy the job, in general (even if there are some things about it that could be challenges for you); (2) do you feel that you could do the job; and (3) would the people doing the hiring consider you to meet their requirements (would they help you with any additional education or training you may need? is the person who suggested that you consider this job someone who has connections and might have something to do with the hiring decision?) - do you feel like you could get this job?

You can still work on your issues. If you are able to work, and working would allow you to get the treatment you need for your issues, then it does not make sense to condemn yourself to being unemployed (or even just exclude yourself from a particular job if it would be a good opportunity for you), just because of these issues that you can work through).

I can see myself in your place so easily. I was lucky enough to marry someone who takes care of me and we have stayed together. It would have been so easy for me to have made other choices and fallen in with someone who would just take advantage of me and abandon me. I don't have a viable career or way to support myself, although lately I've been trying to get into position to move towards having that. I have excluded myself from even considering things that I wanted to do because I thought that my issues would be too much and people would never give me a chance. Recently I have found that there are many people much like me who are doing the things I thought I couldn't do. And it was me who excluded myself (some of the time anyway).

My point is, don't exclude yourself out of fear of your issues. There probably will be times when something bothers or triggers you, but you have the ability to deal with it and to overcome it. While you are unemployed you are forced to focus on just getting by and you are cut off from the resources that could have helped you, and that just makes it harder. But it doesn't have to stay that way. Remember, you are strong, and intelligent, and you have a lot of great insight, and when you get a job then you can go back to therapy and you can get the support that will enable you to overcome the very things that you are worried about now.

Good luck, Inky. I have every confidence in you.

<font color=orange>"Success is the ability to go from failure to failure without losing your enthusiasm. - Winston Churchill "</font color=orange>