I'd say that my hypomania is more debilitating than my depression.

To be honest, I'm not sure what constitutes a severe depression. I'm less motivated, but I get **** done. I've never been suicidal or idealized about it.

I have an old mood diary. My depressive states go like this:

I'll be feeling blue overall, but not unbearably so most of the time. However, sometimes once or twice a day. I'll be hopeless and sobbing for no apparent reason and everything feels hopeless. It typically doesn't last for more than an hour. Often, once around 4pm and the other at night. I have to leave places because of it.

Also, if I'm in a depressive state and something bad happens, I get uncontrollably upset. Like, bawling my eyes out and I hate my life upset. However, I typically feel like it's more manageable in a little bit. I def understand a lot of my triggers.

In fact, now I'm crying. I'm trying to make things work with a guy and it isn't working. When I think about it, I remember how I like no one else and I'm losing him and how I can't get this to go away because this break up isn't going away and there are no other men to distract me. I'm thinking about how no one understands how hard my moods are making my life and how this isn't going away and how I can't escape that either. I don't feel hopeless for my life, but I feel hopeless for the next 6 months.