well it was christmas yesterday and everyone showed up. my sisiter in law came and we talked alot. i miss her mre than anything. she feels the same way as i do. she wants to keep talking and getting togeather. to make matters even worse my wife has been such a ***** about the holiday crap and of course about everyday things like having to go to work. i been thinking about it and just cant get leaving my wife off my mind. my sister in law didnt have anything to say when i told her i wanted to leave my wife. but its not so much to be with my sister in law it is just i am so tried of my wife *****ing so much. she always has a bad addtude. (i know what your thinking but it really doesnt have anything to do with her sister and me. it started long before that). i dont want to leave my wife for her sister but i would like to get a fresh start somewhere else. if thats with my sister in law or just by myself i dont really care anymore. i just want to pick up and get out of here. i ask my wife what she thought of moving on to a new place far away from here and she thought it was stupid. it just seems like as long as we are in this place i cant get a head i always feel like im in a hole that i can never get out of. is it wrong to want to go to sleep and not wake up. i am to a point where i dont know how much more i can take before i feel like i am losing my mind

i dont want to hurt my wife/son but i seem to be painted into a corner with this whole damn thing. i just want it to be over so i can move on with or without anyone