I feel exactly the same. I am staying in a very unhappy, emotio9nally abusive marriage because of fear of being on my own. I have been seeing a T for 5 months - initially for bereavement issues (lost 5 members of my family this year) but it has brought up lots of other buried feels around being/feeling alone. I am a mess atm. I am also new here. Just wanted you to know you are not alone feeling this way. I hope T can help me sort this out but its so painful.