I'm not sure if this is related to my OCD, though I do suspect that it is. I am constantly consumed by anxiety over being perfect. I think that I have to get everything done, despite any odds and if I do not than I am weak. I think to myself.. "well I'm sure plenty of other people have anxiety and grief and they still go to school and get straight A's and go to work every day and don't ever need time off".
When I feel overwhelmed I feel like less of a person. I feel that I'm just taking a cop out. Why shouldn't I be able to handle it all? I know that somewhere in me I know that I do so much for someone in my position. Someone who is mentally unwell and now dealing with grief but still..

I still think I should be doing more.
Does anyone else with OCD or otherwise feel this way? Do you ever punish yourself if you're not absolutely amazing at everything you do?