Hi koko

wow I can understand you're under a heap of stress with this. Not only are you fighting a possible depression but your boyfriend doesn't seem to be that supportive. Sometimes it's nice to just have a hug and and someone to tell us it's going to be okay. Not everyone can give that though, because there can be a lot of fear when a loved one is suffering from mental illness..maybe he's just scared and doesn't know how to help? Some people don't (this is not excusing his behavior though).

Depression can often make us see the negative in EVERYTHING. I understand that, you're not alone. I'm a sufferer myself. I hope you can get to see someone professional so they can give you more insight into what you're going through. Just remember you have support here and you're not alone
Everything is going to be okay