Hi Jesusplay,
I think many of us can be reflected on your words here, we have this persona for the outside world and smiling can be a mechanism to interact better sometimes. Sometimes, smiling is a good thing to me, it helps me to feel better, like an exercise.
But, in any case, what your post provoked me is to think: what is the most important for us , and it is to take our own depression seriously. It is more important than how the other think about us and our depression.
OK, I just wanted to share what I felt when I read your post.
Many greetings