Regrettably, we sometimes have breakthrough episodes even with the best medications, at the right doses. Changes in seasons, stress, life events.....all can destabilize us. The meds really only help to straighten out our brain chemistry; becoming stable also takes a good deal of hard work on changing negative ways of thinking to healthier ones.

And yes, it will be a lifelong fight that requires lifelong vigilance. I know, it can be exhausting. I'm finally stable after two years of battling this illness tooth and nail---it's like I just snapped out of it a couple of months ago and other than the time I tried cutting back on my antipsychotic, I've been as normal as I've ever been or will ever be.

You'll get there.....just don't expect the pills to cure everything. If you're not in therapy, go get some---it'll teach you the coping skills you need to live your best life with this disorder.