Hello friends

I yet find myself in another predicament. I have experience with radio broadcasting and for the first time in months I actually went back on the air and talked sports with an old colleague. I'm 23, currently enrolled in my last class "Romantic Comedies." It's a film class that I can take online so I'm not up at school this semester. CMU is where I spent my time working in radio production.

I was on the right path to get a job and figured I had good contacts and I was ready purse them once out of college. Then everything was put on pause when I had psychosis. I was pulled out of school and perhaps the reason I felt like I was so out of it was because everyone made a big deal about it and then I mustered up a psychological problem in my head. That I couldn't talk right, it was only confidence.

The good news is that I'm back to normal. The bad news is the difficulty in finding a job. I have applied to several places and looking online. I have been comparing myself with colleagues on linkedin.com and it seems as if I'm outmatched. I am the first man in my families history that is going to graduate college. They've all worked in carpentry. I understand that line of business, but it's not my path.

I do believe that I am a great broadcaster and can do excellent in any area of broadcasting, but I need to be given the chance. I found that I didn't get along with some people that I attended school with because opportunity was given on a political basis. I out preformed people in play-by-play and didn't get the opportunity because they claimed I couldn't be a host. I didn't know I had to be good at hosting..... to be a play by play commentator. Any ways, I went and tried out for television play by play and won it in a landslide. The director said "did you try out for radio play by play?" I said yea, she looked confused on why I didn't get it and then gave me job. It was for the spring semester, the one that I was drawn out of school for. I missed it due to this annoying illness that has caused me craziness and depression.

My career has been damaged, my reputation the same. Some people at the school know that I had a break down and with the quick to judge people out there today that are always looking to gain a leg up on their competition quickly look down upon me.

I feel like I missed opportunity in college, high school, and basically my whole life so far. I want that to change. Sure I was good before everything happened and life was going alright, but if you call getting high and boozing it up in-between professional life and social life the best thing you could be doing, you're wrong. I played football in high school, but didn't start senior year because I wasn't big enough. It's always been something my entire life.

I am hoping after the incident I'm gaining the right frame of mind and ready to compete again on a high level. I have take out season coming up in October for the dock company, I'll give that my all. How do I break ground with and bust into the business being better then I was before? Interested to hear everyones thoughts and how they got in. What difficulties they faced.