It hasn't been a very good week so far, and on top of that, I just now had a conversation with a friend who was speaking to another friend and trying to comfort him because he was suicidal.
When I found out, I tried to comfort him:
"Hey. I know this is odd, but if you are feeling...hopeless, know that I am willing to listen because, quite frankly, I've stood on the brink, too."
And was greeted with this response:
"O-oh thanks. It's different though trust me, not to belittle you or anything."
Um, yeah. I understand that.
I cried a little bit. The other friend calmed him down and then turned her attention to me (as talking to him triggered urges) and I kept apologizing and saying that she doesn't need this on top of whatever else she was dealing with.
*Sigh* it's the **** like this that makes me feel worthless. My inability to comfort plus my sudden breakdown - I'm not a very good friend.
Oh, I am so sorry to be so depressed. No-one here needs to read about this. I had my counselor appointment earlier today before all of this happened, though, and I needed to talk to someone about it.