I feel and know my marriage is slowing dying. I am severely depressed and don't care about much at this point. I get so worn down with life... no sleep and this is how it goes. I am angry frustrated, hating being alive, and feel bad because there are so many people fighting to live. If I could I would switch with someone that is wishful and happy about living I would in a heartbeat. I feel bad when I see a sick child or person that has so much that they want to live for and here I am wishing it would all go away.........all of it. And to add to it my husband is/has run out of patience with my illnesses and now I am asking myself what do I do now?