I looked over some of your earlier posts. Idk about mentally ill or social anxiety, but I would think that, based on your description of your parents, that maybe attachment could be an issue? Also I don't think a college counseling center would be the place to deal with it. Like they can only do so much, get so far into your psyche. But that would help explain the social anxiety. If you don't understand attachment, it would make sense to be anxious about social situations that are meant to lead to attachments like dating and mating. Hence the existential angst - what does this all mean? I couldn't understand what a party "meant". Because when I was growing up, a holiday party meant dressing up in uncomfortable clothes, nobody playing with me, and bringing books to read, and feeling embarrassed about going to the bathroom in a strange house, and wanting to fall asleep and not being allowed to. My parents played cards the whole time and ignored me. I should have been learning that a party could be fun, not torture. That attachments were pleasant, not torture.