Yes, that was the age I was like that too.

But even when I went to grad school and people were respectful and nice to me, I expressed interest in a guy (although it was probably too soon, but still...) and in the course of that it escalated into him texting very hurtful things and I've never been able to get over that.

So, basically after that I was done. Then I met the one guy who was ever really worth anything to me, but I had to let it go because it would have freaked him out...I could tell he was highly intimidated by me and possibly even afraid of me. I was not in my right mind during that time anyway and wasn't very safe to be around...but now it's too late. And I hate myself so much for not being able to do anything back then and then for not continuing to try to contact him. I assumed that him not returning a text was him saying that he didn't want to talk to me. I know he was busy, but you're never too busy to talk to someone eventually if you really want to talk to them.

And now it's over, before it even began. I lost the one person I could have been with without ever getting to experience what it's like to be with someone.

If you believe in the concept of a soulmate, it's like if you were to meet your soulmate but never got to even go on a date with them and they ended up with someone else and you were alone the rest of your life because no one else is him.

I can't get over him no matter how hard I try. I haven't talked to him or seen him in so long and that usually gets rid of the feelings, but not this time and I just can't risk trying to contact him again just in case he's with someone as everything that's already broken in me will never be repaired.