Henry, I'm really sorry that you are feeling this way. I spend a lot of time feeling like I'm all on my own with things too, and that I am odd and weird and different. It royally sucks monkey balls.

Just from your posts in here though, it sounds like you've got a bit of a double-standard in regards to expectations though (and I truly don't mean this offensively, just as an observation). It sounds like you reject all of the advice given to you, but on the other hand feel like you give great advice. That's a very black-and-white thinking pattern. It's certainly not helping you any!

Like... I tend to do pretty much the same thing as you with that. Advice that others give me is rejected immediately as I've likely already tried it. It then makes it really easy to think that those same people don't even care to try to help me - when really, they have done their best and I've not gave them a chance. Sometimes I'll go back to what they have said previously, and remind myself that it actually IS good advice, I just don't like it for whatever reason. Sometimes I'll even look at their advice, and then see how I can adapt it around to work better for me.

When you said that it feels like you're lost in the woods without a compass... yes, it's hard for you to find your way out. But, it's even harder for anyone else to find you. You can at least use the sun for guidance to make sure that you're walking in one direction, or find a river/stream and follow it out. But the people looking in the forest for you? They have no idea where you are and they have to search every single tiny spot in there.

So as much as we hope that someone will be able to stumble in and find us... we have to leave more than just bread crumbs. We have to actively leave markers to find us, and we have to actively be working towards getting found and getting out.

I do hope you keep trying, and I hope that maybe you'll revisit some of the advice that you have rejected... even ones you've tried before. Especially in regards to people - because it might not have worked in the past with Person X, but it might work with Person Y. You sorta gotta go right back to the beginning with every person (how utterly frustrating right?).