Payne, you’re probably right about giving options longer times. I guess I’m just impatient because I’ve lived here two years. Also, I guess I just don’t know how to cope in the meantime. My therapist says that there is nothing to do but make the best of it until I can move because college kids are on a different level than me (she always forgets how young I am and thinks I’m 26 haha).

Gma, I appreciate it.

Panda, don’t worry about offending me. I appreciate observation and advice. I am a very black and white thinker. I’m working on not doing that. I’ve been getting better though. I guess I just feel that if I’m doing all I can, why can’t someone help me find something else to do too? It’s hard for me to keep faith or keep doing something that hasn’t been working for two years. I feel like logically, I should do something else.

I def have a river. I have a handful of great friends and a plan after graduation. I guess I’m just getting bored and lonely in the woods.

I think I’m just being a baby because most others can use this advice and their life is easier. I don’t want to work this hard and have less options than everyone else. But the ends is worth the means. I’ll keep working at it.