I just wish i was invisible. I'm getting better in small ways, but it's too small steps, I want to be back to normal so much. I want my friendships to go back to the way they were, I want it to be more natural to be around people and more natural to be in a good mood.

How long is it going to take? How long are we going to be like this for? I'm so fed up! But i can't seem to do anything about it, I don't know what to do, I just wish I was back to normal, or wish i was invisible, or not here, one or the other. I'm not suicidal anymore, but I still wish I didn't exist.

I have more good days now, but I still get days like today, where I just want to curl up in bed and hide away. I wish my triggers didn't trigger me lol.

How do you all cope with bad days? And feelings of intense loneliness and worthlessness? Feelings of failure and that I don't deserve love or friendship?

Stars xx