sunrise: Hmm, that does make sense. When she said that, I immediately went into abandonment mode, but maybe to her it's neither here nor there that I'm not mentally ill. The shock of what she said has worn off, and I think you're probably right that she still thinks I should go. But I will definitely bring it up somehow next time.

Just curious, what exactly does "existential issues" mean? Is it just that you are having difficulties knowing your place and purpose in the world? I think I have issues along those lines, but it is very hard to put to words.