First of all I'm really sorry because I know most you of advised me not to talk to the guy who used me and according to everybody sexually assualted me. I do appriciate what you all advised, I just needed to see for myself.

I didn't mention the sexual assualt as I knew that wasn't a good idea. We started talking normally and he started flirting with me and refering to sexual things that happened between us. But I asked him if he used me, ect. He told me what happened with us was a mistake, but kept claiming he didn't wanna hurt me. But then he stopped answering my messages for a few days so I sent him a long text, being really open with him which is hard for me especially with him, telling him how I had felt and refering to my self harming. And he sent back an awful message saying how I was twisting his words and that he didn't have time to worry about some lass who is crying about answers from something that happened two years ago... And now hes not answering because he said unless I change my tone hes not gunner bother. I've been nothing but nice to him, defended him to everyone. Never believed any bad of him (that he sexually assualted me ect). But I don't know how to deal with this atm, I am studying at college and am having to work really hard as I hope to be a doctor. I don't feel like anyone, at all, really understands what I'm feeling or how hard I'm finding it to cope everyday... I don't want to self harm again as I did the other day, really bad, and my boyfriend was so upset.

Has anybody got an opinon on this guy to help with my closure? Or any advice?

Thank you in advance