To the girl that I briefly explained to, she was just trying to feel me out. No real thing there. She's like "uhh..ok..." and we both got sidetracted by sometĥing else. (it 2as at a party)

To the others.....it was my first time actually being aware that I was raging. But I couldnt stop it. 4 people dissed me and I didnt feel the need to take it. A group of people witnessed it. I ended up leaving. On one hand, I was in pain and wanted to inflict pain because of what mitual friends did to me. But after I had calmed down after a few days, they hàd not. By then rumors had started and they started making fun of me like they were in high school. I thought they were better than that actually because they are in a......more well to do lifestyle. And have glamourous jobs, etc. But when I saw that they treated me bad, I began to get depressed because they did everything against me. Its still not 100%. Funny thing is, I dont give a **** about anyone but those girls. So I inflicted just more pain into myself by them being against me and not validating me or being on my side.