Ok, I'm just trying to reword this to see if I understand how it went:

1) You raged at someone because people dissed you?
2) People started spreading rumours about that rage.
3) People then bullied you around this, and you were understandably depressed about it.

Which part was the authentic you that you showed them? The raging part? Cause while that was authentic.. that's now how you feel inside all the time is it? I'm sure there is more to you than just rage and depression.

Like... if it's hard to just be the authentic you (who is not perfect just like no one else is perfect!) and yet people fawning over you is getting on your nerves... why not try to tone down the stuff that's a veneer? You can dial down the intensity of the awesome, and people will hopefully calm down. If you succeed with that and then feel like it, you could always start showing bits and pieces of the real you with people that you have gotten to know and think could possibly be trusted with some things.

It seems a bit like you're hitting two extremes, and I can totally understand how that could be frustrating.

((And - I am really sorry that those people treated you horribly. No one deserves to have rumours spread about them or to be made fun of.))