There are tons of people who I know and consider myself to be friends with. However, it takes me forever to become close with people. I can't tell if I'm scared of taking the first steps in further developing a friendship or if I'm just not good at it. People always make such quick, close friendships while I sit and watch it happen. I think the root of the problem is my unwillingness to approach people before they approach me, so it seems like i don't want to talk to them even though I really do. I just don't know what the cause of the unwillingness is (am i scared? shy? just plain antisocial and reserved?) so I don't know how to overcome it.
I don't know if I'm making any sense here- this is just a stream of consciousness so I apologize if I'm a tad unclear.