I still can't get past my fear of taking clonazepam, i read about peoples horrible withdrawals and i know i SHOULDNT read that and I'm NOT like everyone else, however I'm still afraid

oh what to do.. im at such a loss... panic attacks vs med that *might* help... *****. i just don't know, im so stuck, how does one get past the fear of meds... argh so so so so so frustrated. New year is coming and Im sick of panic attacks, sick of being afraid to go anywhere, sick of being afraid to be alone, sick of fearing my own health and sanity. sick sick sick.