This thread has my name written all over it. For 6 years I was left unmedicated and I put a lot of people through hell when I was in high school and college. I ruined so much and I bare so much guilt and fear because of it. I have destroyed friendships and relationships in the ugliest way and people hate me for it. I had to change high schools because I caused so many people to hate me that they wanted to harm me. People gossiped about me and I lost the majority of my friends. I feel so lonely because of it. Only a few have stuck to my side, but many of them are dorming far away. I try to forget about it and move on, but people keep harassing me and ruining opportunities for me. I always worry about the people I have angered and harmed will ruin my current relationship and my future career. I really hope they forget about me and let me live a good life. Even when they don't harass me I'm still guilted by it. I have apologized to a few people and some have forgiven me. Others, like most of my family, shun me, but I rather be shunned than hated at this point.