I'm sorry L Was thinking about you and our spoon theory discussion today a lot. You haven't physically harmed anyone that's good - you somehow chose not to waste a "spoon" or 5 on that route. There has to be a way to not spend spoons on the yelling. We're human it happens. You are a good mom and so am I. But sometimes it's too overwhelming, and with hubs recovering from surgery, you need more help. What you told me about the spoons I waste on my hypo activities , thinking i must use up all spoons before they go away , which usually leads me feeling drained & depressed - really got me thinking. There is a huge toll to pay going to the yelling place, ending up feeling like blood is boiling & brain has been electrocuted. Must find a way to avoid it , you can't afford it. I'm worried you're dehydrated , body needs nourishment. You're heart soul & mind need nourishment. Just apologize for the yelling, assure him you love him and will be ok, but mom needs some quiet time. Take the prn. Rest. Get to an endocrinologist when you can. Help is on the way.
You Are a Good & Loving Mama, nobody's perfect, show him hope & healing happen, we all make mistakes. There are healthy solutions & you will find them.