I have been depressed for some time now but with a recent breakup it got much, much worse. This is on top of my bpd which is also in full rage now, following the same sad event.

At the moment it is all quite crippling; just making it through the day is rather a challenge and I can't really work much.

My issue is that I can't even have a break from this misery by sleeping, simply because I can't sleep. I try, I really do - go to bed, lights off, etc. and I am really exhausted all the time but I only get a few hours of disturbed, broken sleep or none at all.

I started to think that it does play a part in my hypersensitivity and anger issues. Sleep deprivation just cannot be good for one's nerves.

Now, I guess, the first thing to try would be some sleeping pill but I must confess I'm dreading to try it. I have never used any, mainly because I have frequent nightmares, episodes of sleep paralysis and that terrible entity experience. I actually fear for my life - I think if I'm drugged and unable to wake up from such an episode, I might get killed in my sleep.

It is quite a predicament - I really need to sleep to become functional again (well, I need a hell of a lot more than that) and I have no idea what to do.

Any suggestions, please?