Hey that's really concerning. Not so much what your T texted as your frame of mind. It sounds like you really need your meds, lithium isn't usually an optional drug. Go and see your T tomorrow. Whatever you're feeling, just go. I get that you want him to make a big fuss and show his concern. I do. But most T's can't do that by text. And at the end of the day, your wellness is up to you. I agree it sounds like your depression talking. It's time to activate your support system and get help wherever you can.