like others have said, easily refuse the APs.

From what I've seen of you since I joined here CG though is this: 1) you do not consistently take your meds, so you have thus never actually benefited from them not because they don't work... but because you don't follow the instructions for them! 2) you have a LOT of severe ups and downs and 3) You don't have very many coping skills that you are proficient with yet (from what I've seen, read, and remembered anyway!).

And now you are in a very new, stressful, and exciting environment where you have no one that is really aware of how your moods go and thus no one to help monitor where you are.

It's obviously your choice as to what you do, and I understand not wanting to be on meds. But it sounds like it could be a total disaster and you've already gotten yourself into the situation where you COULD get kicked out of your fraternity and where you're already risking failing a course., less than a month since classes started right?

Either way - good luck!! I hope that the councelling services will benefit you and will respect your decision.