my t is taking 2 weeks off over christmas and new year.

bummer.

last session... i'm not trying to punish him or anything... but i guess i felt sad about his not being around. i hate christmas anyway so that makes it hard for me. just want to ignore it and treat this time of year the same as any other time of year but that is impossible to do when people insist on taking time off. sigh.

he was determined i felt sad about the holiday. but i don't know. i wasn't trying to punish him... but i didn't want to talk about feeling sad. i didn't want to feel sad. i don't want to feel sad.

%#@&#! him for going away right now...

i don't have any noticable memory gaps but... christmas... i can't remember christmas when my parents were together. you would think that would have been a happy memory... but i can't remember.