hey guys thanks for all the support. I don't think my T was telling me I shouldn't call her .in fact I think she was glad I did. I feel hugely vulnerable about it .when she was talking about waiting until the morning to call her it was in the context of being able to slow myself down and be able to change my thinking . I didn't think that she thought I was crossing some boundary but I am starting to think maybe it was about that. I don't call her often but she acted like it was ok for me to do so.